Sunday, July 22, 2012

July 22, 2012: Herding Cat Specialist

Woke up with big plans of cleaning and studying. What did I do instead?!!! Embarrassing admission coming: I played around on a Korean dating website. Aye caramba! Ok so ever since I started loving Korean dramas I thought it would be fun just to see what/whom was out there. I wasn't looking for anything serious. I think it was just an attempt to bring my Kdramas a little closer to reality. Well....I woke to an email from someone on that website and he lives near me! Ahhhhh!!!! That wasn't supposed to happen. Well, one thing led to another and I wasted away time on the site. *sigh* It's not that I feel alone but I guess I do feel lonely at times. That's ok right? No desire at all to date....let's clarify that one right now. Just a little feeling of loneliness....well actually a feeling of missing romance. Yes...that's it. I miss romance.

I did tear myself away to get my kids ready for church. What a scene we are every time we walk into the building. This time Claire and Faith were way ahead, shut the door on the one shoe-d Josh with their frazzled mom coming up the rear. Sacrament was the same as always. With Josh it feels like I am trying to hold a wet cat. I know he knows how to whisper but I really feel like he chooses NOT to do it during sacrament meeting. As the bread was being passed he decided to feel all the pieces to try to choose the biggest piece. At this point I try to take it away, at which point Josh grabs the tray with all his might....screaming in protest. Do I tear it away and have it all fly all over the place or do I let go and risk him throwing it all over the place anyway? Of course it doesn't help that I start laughing. Why do I do that with him? He is being so naughty and all I can do is laugh? Maybe it's because that is all I CAN do. What were the talks about again? I hardly ever get to listen to them. I hope my brain is soaking it in without my knowing. Maybe in the next life I will be able to access those parts of my brain with all the missed sacrament talks.

Then church ends and I get the overwhelming dread, "Is it over already?" Time to rescue the primary teachers from my kids. I wouldn't trade them and I really don't feel like they are monsters in any way. It just really is like herding cats. They are all individuals, wanting to be free and wild. I do have to say I was so touched when during the after church scout meeting, where Josh chose to scream at the top of his lungs, a sweet girl from the ward asked if she could take Josh outside to play. Truly doing the Lord's work right there. I wonder if people know what little acts of service like that really mean to the people receiving them.

By the time I got home, I realized my stuffed nose was not due to allergies but I was starting to feel sick. Great...I have a messy house, kids that are in desperate need of some attention, Korean dramas to watch, a test to study for, raw chicken in the fridge that needs to be put into bags to go into the freezer, and dinner to cook. And all I want to do is go to sleep. I am proud to say I DID get the chicken into the freezer. Another embarrassing admission coming: I constantly will buy bulk meat that I mean to separate so I can freeze it. But, who actually feels like dealing with raw meat right after you go grocery shopping? Not me! But then time...days pass and many pounds of meat have gone bad because I've never gotten them separated into the freezer. Wow....now that I admit that, it sounds pretty pitiful that I have actually done this. There are so many things like that too. So many little things that take just minutes to do but get put off because there are other pressing matters. Before I know it, the little things turn into big problems. Can I blame it on that I am trying to become a herding cat specialist?

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  1. I feel that way about Sacrament meeting sometimes too... I am trying so hard to keep Maddy in one place and quiet that I don't ever feel like I really get to listen. We usually end up all in the hallway and trying to keep her good there. Yesterday was actually pretty nice giving a talk because then I couldn't worry about her and I actually got to listen to the other talks. :)
    oh and I do that with meat sometimes too.

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    1. You do that with meat too?! I am so glad...in a selfish way. :) I thought I was the only one! People say we will miss these days when our kids are younger. I really really don't think I will miss the terror and chaos every Sunday.

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  2. Sundays are crazy and every week Kjel begs me to take the day off. I then force everyone to church, because it's the right thing to do, and spend sacrament meeting wishing I'd taken the day off. Even with a few older kids that don't need my constant entertainment I can't seem to catch much. I blame my ornery attitude though.
    Oh and meat is just nasty to separate. I buy in bulk too but sometimes I splurge and buy not in bulk because I know I'm just not ready to take on the challenge.

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